I sat on my bed, I said to myself : ‘write down that thought, that idea that you’ve just thought, it was good’…
I did not write it, now few weeks later I forgot. Will I remember it again?
What happens with all the ideas we have and we don’t follow up? were exactly on the brain do they get store? it might and rightly so not even be passed on as an impulse, a neuron kick? But what is it? What is invisible? all the information that goes and passes through without us recording it consciously? yet, it is there in the unconscious, waiting to be upload into a possibility that makes it to exist.
I really wanted to remember it! It was a good one I know, why did I not write it down, I thought of it twice and I reassured myself that I did not need it to write it down because it was so clear that I will not forget. How comes that I did not selected? how can I retrieve it? I am afraid of forgetting, and rightly so, as I get older I noticed that I forget. Runs help me to remember and regenerate neurons they say, but it is not enough to recalled everything. And of course that is a good thing neuroscientist tell us. Imagine you don’t forget any single thing? unless you live in a wonderland then it would be OK. But how painful would be not to be able to forget. As much I like to remember I like to forget the unnecessary. In learning I find an interesting set of lectures that might helped me to remember by learning, the lectures are called learning how to learn by Terrence Sejnowski and Barbara Oakley Learning how to learn.
Now coming back to the idea that I forgot, can the act of reveling the evoked and not found be the beginning of remembering?
And that brings me to the idea of evoked v/s found.
Of course it sounds trivial but if we look for the word evoked the meaning is ‘bring or recall (feeling, memory or image) to the conscious mind’ Latin word is evocare; from e- (variant of ex-)‘out of, from’ + vocare ‘to call’.
In that sense it is a call for out of somewhere.
In performance the fundamentals is the call a movement out of the self. First, the movement is automatic mostly cliché, stereotypical, then together with the persistence something else appears what I like to see as a primordial movement. Primordial in the sense of unknown to the body. Often not even be able to capture for repetition.
Or somehow expert intuition. The importance of knowing how in a skillful way is relevant to the practice and creation processes.
Often part of my practice of movement get written there are books and books of writing, and sometimes I go back at least one. Reflection on the page is crucial to praxis.